Blurred Boundaries 8/26

You ever plan something only to have it not go quite as you imagined? That's how my trip to Mexico unfolded. To be honest, that's how a majority of vacations unfold for me but I digress. I had planned a trip to Playa Del Carmen, Mexico back in March with two friends. Basically it was a single girls trip. At the time, I had very few of those in my life. Most of my friends are married. Some have children of their own by now. But one of the girls I planned the trip with has a tendency to be bossy/controlling. This is something she openly admits and doesn't seem to have much remorse about. Her energy and personality was abundantly clear when planning the flight. She would only fly at specific times, use specific airlines and was against connecting flights. I was very stressed while booking the flight with her.

Flash forward to the day of departure. My straw on my purse broke. This was strange because the purse is less than a year old. One of my spiritual mentors told me this occurrence deals with lack of support. In hindsight it makes perfect sense. Our flight was also delayed that day. This trip taught me a great deal about expectations and open communication. We never really discussed our expectations for the trip ahead of time. Despite the fact that we were only in Mexico for 2.5 days when you cut out travel time.... the other girls wanted to do an excursion. And I only found that out while on the trip. I also did not want to spend any more money; due to the extra money the flight had cost me by using specific airlines and flying at specific times. So I told the girls that I'd be open to one of the excursions, but if they wanted to do a different one they could. I would just stay back at the hotel. I had a book to read and didn't mind. The bossy girl made a comment about me being "weird." But in the end, we picked the snorkeling excursion I agreed to. However, in order to get the discount on it we had to listen to a time share pitch.

This pitch was located at their sister hotel a 5 min drive away. We went and listened to the pitch. We then stayed at this other hotel all day because it had nicer amenities than our hotel. We got validated for the discounted trip and went back to our hotel at 7pm. The concierge who explained the excursion package to us was there until 8pm the previous night. But she was not at the hotel when we got back. She had never told us she was the only one we could book the trip with, that the trip books a day in advance, that the excursion starts early the next morning or that she only worked tonight until a certain time. So we were unable to book the excursion. For me in this moment, God was there.

During this trip I also had some other issues. The girls I vacationed with like to drink a lot. I do not like to. Partially because I get sick, and partially because I like remembering my trip. One of the girls kept bringing me drinks. Even when I didn't ask for them. I kept telling her she couldn't get me to drink, but she pushed a bit. However, two times on the trip when she asked the bartender for Coronas for all of us he brought Coca Cola. For me, God was there. Everyone was also eating 2x a day with an early evening snack in between. We also missed breakfast because we traveled to the third sister hotel. It was further than the second one. I became really upset due to hunger. My fight or flight response kicked in. All the anger I felt towards the one bossy girl intensified. And the third hotel was so large that I don't think I could find my way back to the lobby if I tried. So I felt angry and trapped. I tried slow deep breathing and that didn't work. So of course I did inner spiritual healing, in a pool. In front of everyone. I was glad that I was wearing sunglasses. I made a new choice. I made a choice to stay calm, and God was there. I did not sacrifice my peace or say things I'd regret. This trip definitely taught me the ways I don't openly express myself, and where I need to surrender control. Love and Light <3