First Blog Post 6-2-19

Things don't always go as planned; that's life, right? Well, this is especially true on the twin flame journey. I was supposed to go volunteer at Church, and then attend service. I attend a non denominational Christian Church. However, there was a period of time that I pondered whether Buddhism was a more appropriate choice for me. I agree with the idea of oneness consciousness, believe in reincarnation, and believe all people should be able to love who they want to love no matter what their sexuality is. But I could never give up Jesus, and that led me back to the Christian faith. I digress.

I awoke to a flat tire. This meant I could not go to or volunteer at Church this morning. This threw off my routine, and made me feel off kilter. I felt very supported by God in getting my flat fixed because I used the Geico emergency roadside assistance. Someone came within 40 minutes. I was also blessed in that the flat was outside of my apartment, and I learned from the flat repair person that the tire was most likely fixable. I was so relieved that I most likely wouldn't need to buy a new tire. Another blessing from God. I learnt later on that I could not go to see my parents today or attend my spiritual discussion group due the tire taking hours to repair. This forced me to slow down and take rest. It was later confirmed that this was meant to be when my friend messaged me, "Well enjoy the lazy Sunday." The confirmation came with a supermarket freezer door flying open seemingly by itself at the time of the text. I hadn't been feeling well yesterday and it lingered onto today. I generally don't break obligations even if feelings somewhat under the weather out of guilt. But this guilt doesn't serve me.

It was hard for me to surrender and let go of control while waiting for my car's tire to be fixed. It was taking a while, so I thought it couldn't be fixed. All these negative thoughts entered my mind. I looked up the spiritual meaning of having a flat tire. I learned it can mean you feel "stuck" in your life or you are trying too hard to "control" your life. Well, look at that. I did some meditation and then I called the tire shop after my car had been there for 4.5 hours. I decided that I'd be okay with whatever the answer was. The front desk person told me the tech just finished my car as I called. The moment you surrender is the moment you get what you need. I relate this experience to the twin flame journey as needing to surrender to God's will and the flow of life.

I got my car back and decided to go grocery shopping. I normally wouldn't go at this time because I'd be involved in my spiritual discussion group. While I was out, I had a chance encounter with my old therapist! I had been going to her for two years and had never run into her in public before. We had a brief conversation and then parted ways. One of my spiritual mentors had told me that when God orchestrates reuniting with your twin flame it will happen in a way you least expect it. Even if either of your routines is disrupted to make it happen. I didn't fully believe this statement. Now I do. Light and Love <3