Sick Again or Ascending? 6/21/19

I had a healing session this past Tuesday and ever since that night, I have been sick with a sore throat... again. Thank God there is no fever, chills or body ache accompaniment. Just fatigue. They say make a plan and God laughs. Well, that he did. I planned on going to my CIT class Weds night, but I fell asleep due to taking cough medicine. I apologized and luckily can attend a make-up class. I decided not to go to my group coaching class Thursday because I would probably fall asleep again. Sickness kind of threw a monkey wrench into my week. I only went to yoga once. Yoga is another way I release my feelings.

I also got into discussion with a soul family member about how I may not be a part of the soul family after all. It brought about doubt and feelings of rejection for me. Since life is one big giant reflection of what you are feeling inside; I am clearly rejecting a part of myself. What proved harder to deal with was that this person kept questioning my methods of figuring out I was soul family. As opposed to being direct and just saying that she disagreed at this time. There is definitely some inner work to be done on this topic.

I was also triggered by finding out someone I associate with has mental illness. It reminded me of my mother and brought up all these feelings of fear of instability. Fear of bad things happening beyond my control. But your thoughts create your reality, so I need to do inner work and think positively. That way I manifest positive outcomes and events. Our thoughts create our reality, after all.

One good thing did come of this though. Awareness upon an old pattern I'd like to end. I leak energy trying to excessively help others when I should be trying to focus on inner healing. But I need to be more assertive in setting boundaries. It doesn't help anyone if they become dependent on someone else.