The Calm after the Storm

I am feeling so incredibly peaceful at this moment. I cannot fully express my gratitude for my MAP (Mind Alignment Process) session. The session is formulated to heal deep trauma and PTSD symptoms. My journey after my session on the evening of 9/23 up til this point has been a roller coaster ride. The first day after my session I felt great. I was still triggered by some old upsets which were discussed in the MAP session. But I had a lot of energy that day, and was laughing a lot. Positively giddy, I would say. It was a new experience for me, since I generally have a somewhat serious demeanor. The day after I was exhausted and disoriented. Then I went through anger and released it the following day. By Friday I felt calm, but not peaceful yet.

Saturday I went to a yoga workshop called, "New Moon Sister Circle." As a group we explored our relationship with our parents and how this influences our masculine and feminine energies that we hold in our energetic body. I became very emotional as I discussed my relationship with my mother, and remembered by childhood wounds. There was still more to be released there. I noticed feeling shame for feeling my emotions bubble to the surface. But I released that shame. It's okay to feel my feelings, even if it is in front of others who are composed. The facilitator created a safe space for this and practiced conscious communication. I felt blessed to be there because I wanted to know more about balancing my masculine and feminine energy within. It's a question I had posed to my soul family a week before. There are no coincidences. We did a closing meditation to help balance this and were asked to look within to find balance as well. The next day during meditation at yoga teacher training I had a memory come up regarding my mother being critical of me. Tears starting flowing down my face while I was meditating. I also realized later that day that I expect too much of people, and expect too much of myself as well. I have since used to mirror exercise to love the part of me that feels judged/criticize and unworthy of unconditional love. I currently feel pure bliss. This work works.